fuck fuck fuck FUCK!!!!!
i HATE being so far away!!! you're crying, and i can't hold you, and it makes me want to scream!!!!!
i can't DO anything! i can't talk to you, or hold you, or fix everything and make it all okay!!
that's all i want. i want everything to be okay for you.
i'm so worried about you. i know you're with your friend, but she's not me, and i want to be there for you. i SHOULD be there for you.
i feel like such a failure, cause i'm not there, nad i have no way of helping. i'm there for you, but it's not enough, but it HAS to be, cause there's so much bs that i have to do before i can be with you.
so fuck. life is really screwed up when all i can do is hope and pray that you're okay. i know you'll talk to me when you can. i know it's not ABOUT me. i just want you to be okay.