This being a certain dream.

Basically I'll go a couple of days without thinking about... her (her being she that has been mentioned only a thousand times in this journal, Maddie.) Anyways, I'll go a couple of days without thinking about her and then one night my subconcious is like "Oh, P.S., you know that thing you haven't been thinking about lately because it hurts a lot? Well here's a reminder of what you can NEVER EVER have!" And I'll have a dream about her. That's what happened last night. Actually technically this morning.

My alarm went off at six, I got up, turned it off, went back to sleep, and that's when I had the dream.

In the dream I was talking to her on msn and she kept on inviting me over to her house. Her, "Please! Come on, it'll be fun!" Me, "um... no. No I don't want to." Her, "Come on, really! Come over." Me, "But you're an asshole!" Then I ended up going. So I was at her house and her mom and brother and dad were there. She says "Lets have a water fight." so I'm like "ok.. sure." We go into her backyard and we're having a waterfight and her brother and dad are just standing there watching us. It's a weird water fight though. I'm throwing water at her out of a small yellow plastic cup and she is throwing it at me with a white cup. We just keep refilling it using a hose. So then after a while her brother goes, "Hey I have an idea! Lets make it harder." Her brother goes to where the hose is attatched to a pipe coming up from the ground a little bit and unscrews the hose from the pipe a little bit so water is squirting out of the pipe instead of the end of the hose. Then we both run for the pipe to refill our cups and we start fighting over it and like, rolling around and the ground gets muddy so we're now covered in mud. Then I pinned her to the group. So I'm sitting on top of her and I have her hands pinned to the group and I'm leaning over to keep her pinned. Keep in mind her brother and dad are still watching. I feel like I should get off so I say "Maybe we should stop" and she says no. Then she leans up closer to my face and kisses me. Then I lean down and kiss her. And we kind of go back and forth like that. Either leaning up or down to kiss each other. Then we were in front of her house and clean suddenly. We get into an SUV, she drives, to go to a park. Then I woke up again.

=\ So not fair. Why does my subconcious have to do that to me.