Okay so, I'm having trouble saying out loud that I'm a lesbian...it's really hard because I'm still holding onto the hope that maybe, just MAYBE this is a phase and one day I'll fall in love with a guy and marry him, have children. etc. The only thing is, I'm turned on by women. The way that some of their bodies look is just GASP! I'm constantly having fantascies about having sex with women, touching them, kissing them, you get my point. Why is it that I'm having so much trouble saying that I'm a lesbian out loud? Is there ANY way that I could be straight and just be like, in denial? I don't get turned on by men. I don't have fantascies about them and I think male gentilia is just GRRRRROSSSS! I know that some of you might roll your eyes and say "you're a FUCKEN LESBIAN YOU MORON!" but seriously, I CAN'T accept it! Did you guys first realize you were a homosexual/bisexual because you were constantly having sexual fantascies about the same sex like I am? Please, ANY feedback you can give me would be MUCHLY appriciated!!!!