i just had breakfast with R....i have a migrane, and i'm exhausted. guh.
breakfast was so weird. i dunno. i just didn't want to be with her this morning. she has a rather shrill voice, and she kept talking really loud...yeah, real good when i have a migrane. ugh. i just had an awful time.
and i'm so tired. haha, it took us like, 2 hours to say good night last night!! me and J, that is, lol, not me and R.
god....it was so wonderful to hear her voice again. i'm going to get a calling card today, so that we can talk without costing me a fortune, lol. and i hope she can get a microphone soon, too, so that we can talk for free.
seriously, guys, she's amazing. funny, smart (despite what she'll tell you), kind, compassionate, and just fun! and so many other adjectives that i don't feel like listing, lol. gah, my head hurts so bad.
i want to talk to her. i want to be with her already. waiting is going to kill me....but that's okay. it'll just make those first moments all the more sweeter.
we talked for an hour last night...oh man. :D just chatting. telling stories, that sort of thing. it was beautiful. i completely lost track of time. i forgot i was tired, or worried, or stressed out. i just....forgot everything but the sound of her beautiful voice.
and i NEVER lose track of time. it happens sometimes when i'm reading or writing, but never any other time. it's just how i am.
it was really cloudy today, and while i was driving home, i saw this patch of blue sky, that somehow, the clouds weren't covering.
that's her. she's my patch of blue sky.
and it's so wonderful to finally be with someone who can give back. i think Em (and i) were just too young back then...and R...well, she's R.
so i don't really think i've ever been in a completely healthy relationship. and it's not like J and i don't have things to overcome (like, ya know THE OCEAN!!), but every day, more and more, i feel like she's willing to meet me half way. and to be wanted! it's so alien to me.
she sent me this beautiful message this morning. it was so wonderful to have dragged myself awake, and to be rewarded with such sweet words.
i'm going to go take a nap now. my head is killing me. babe, if you're reading this and i'm not online yet, txt me, okay?
have a good day, y'all.