i'm going to a barbershop for the first time...yay.

i'm having a rotten day so far. i'm just....ick. i know i should be pushing myself, but i can't quite care enough.

i know i'm sliding slowing into being depressed, but.....oh well. ah, fuck. i'm being stupid.

i'm just having a bad day. my parents are...i love them. they're good people, they're good parents. and i'm growing up, and...i feel like half the time, i'm just not a part of their lives.

and it's kinda scary, nad disconcerting, and i feel like such a hypocrite, cause i've been pushing them away for years now....but now it's like ....oh, i don't know what the hell i'm talking about.

i'm having a bad day. i'm in a bad mood. i need a hug. i need wolf to be understanding, and i need....gah, i don't know. i need a life. i need a job. i need to be OUT of here already!!!

i just have no motivation right now to get my act together. i can't even get myself to the gym.

ah, fuck. i'm going out to get a haircut. then i'll hang out with Em and hopefully see His Cuteness, and that'll cheer me up. the play will be...the play, and hopefully i'll be able to just be sad/moved, and not get angry.

cause right now, i'm an inch away from being totally pissed off at EVERYTHING. just cause it's there.

BD