okay so
heres the deal the mother of the girl i like has invited me to easter dinner i am friends with the family i go to school with this chicks older brother the family treats me like i am one of them and this girl and I have only met briefly for a few mins but have been talking since before christmas online. so tonight the girl i like and i were talkin on msn its no secret that i like her and she called me a geek i am kinda hurt she was just playin but gah
my best friends husband is seeing a specialist friday about his heart condition (if you dont know what i am talking about see my previous journal) they are leaving the kid with the grandparents for the first time ever overnight and going on a romantic get away ok and i am jelous of the whole idealized romantic gataway but it also send a flag shes afraid shes losing him is my hunch
as you probably guessed i am of mixed emotions right now any kind words would be welcome right about now
because if i had a whole hour to type i would tell you about school i have a forty page techinical manual to WRITE by friday and i am pg 24 and because of my set up i need to get to pg 46 to hit the forty page mark(some blank pages) on then theres the other hw and the exams to study for

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