i'm actually in a surprisingly good mood. i'm not sure why, i just am.

TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!

i keep forgetting that!!!!

lol

hmm. i had a really good session with my therepist today. minus the fact that she almost started crying cause her dog died last week. that was really awkward.

but we talked about australia, and how i'm going to take care of myself. which is good.

i love J with all my heart....and i'm going to need her so much when i'm there. but....i also need to be able to take care of myself. for ME, i need to take care of myself. cause i can't depend on anyone, not even her.

that's just part of who i am. it doesn't mean i love her any less, just that i can't rely on her. if she'll let me, i will definitly lean on her....but i need this for me, too.

i hope that makes sense....

it's so nice to be in a normal relationship. well, okay, not TOTALLY normal, but....well, not R.

i mean, i can ask how her day was! i can ask her questions! she lets me be there for her when she's upset! she doesn't mind that i talk about her to other people!

i don't have any regrets from R, but......it's just nice to have a healthy relationship.

i'm going to miss talking to her tonight....J that is. well, unless she gets wireless. :D that'd be awesome.

BD