im so embarassed! i've been just thinking how fucked it is that ohad's not called and shit, and then he sends a text saying "don't make me sad :(" and i thought he meant that he's been waiting for me to call him so i did and explained to him straight off that it's because i was waiting for him to call and i don't want to seem like a stalker and only after we talked i realized that...well...his text was actually in response to my previous text. i told him..."it's a shame your working coz i got the house for myself today" and he was just replying "don't make me sad"....nothing to do with no having talked to one another.

i'm going to go into a corner and die now, he doesn't like me, and i've already fallen in love with him, and i refuse to do the one sided relationship....AGAIN!
so that's it, i'm quitting, no more ohad, no more nothing, i'm going out to a dress up party tonight and getting smashed, then on sunday i'm going to see if i can't get aviv to come and sleep with me...put me out of my FUCKING MISERY!
AAAAAAAAERRHh!g!gg!g!g! I HATE IT!ttttttttttttTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!