so. today was awesome!!!

i went over to my old junior high, and chatted wiht some of my old science teachers! it was great! i saw B, and LF, and M, and Q (not that i like her all that much, BUT). it was so, SO freaking awesome!

it was so weird being back at the school.....so much happened there, for me. and the science department was my salvations. LF and B especially....they were the ones i TAed for. them and calle were....everything. there were others, but they're hte ones i remember.

it's so....wonderful....to go back and visit them. like coming home. i have such fond memories of B's room (she used to share it with LF). in 7th grade, LF and her TAs threw me a surprise bday party there....and how many lunch periods did Ja and i spend writing on the chalkboards, and discussing string theory like we thought we had a clue?

how many days did i get up and go to school JUST for that blessed hour when i was USEFUL. when i MEANT something. when i could be alone, in the backroom, washing beakers, or setting up labs, or grading papers. or the days when seh wanted me to help in the classroom, help the kids, teach them the ways.

going there is like going home. it's such a safe place for me. it was there that i first had real friends, there that i wasn't an outcast. well, i was, but...it didn't matter, cause people DID care. and some of my distance was self imposed, cause i just didn't know how else to be.

i remember standing on the hill with Em, just after we'd met, and her pointing out to me the girl she had a crush on, and me thinking it was the guy next to the igrl she was talking about. i remember meeting her and wolf in spanish class, room 5.

it was such an awful time, but such a wonderful one, too.

i remember going in just before 9th grade started, to help them all move their classrooms back after the renovations. i packed ALL of B's books up when they moved the first time, then UNpacked them all at the portables, then REpacked them, moved em and UN packed them AGAIN. haha. and cleaning out LF's desk with her, and getting a ton of old text books and it was wonderful. just wonderful.

in other news....i got lighter fluid! and i got carded for the first time in my life! haha. so yeah. now the AWESOME lighter that Em got engraved for me actually works! amazing!

did i tell you guys about that? it's a plain steel zippo, with "remember the future" on one side, and the outline of a labrys on the other :D the labrys i wear around my neck has those same words engraved on the back, so it's pretty neat.

but yeah, now my parents think i'm either going to start smoking, or become a pyro.

the pyro isn't TOTALLY unlikely, but let's just say this about smoking. i'd have sex with a guy before i ever smoked anything.

so.

what else did i do today? hmmm.....ooh, i played one of my new games with my mom! it's called Twisted Fish, ti's a variation on go fish, and it ROCKS.

PLUS it came wtih this random rubber ducky, so :D :D :D

so, J wants me to post some pix on here, but i'm gonna wait and post them in a new journal in just a sec. :D

i love you, babe. you make everything brighter. as much as i hate it when you have a bad day, i'm flattered that it's at least in part cause i'm not there. is that horrible? well, then let it be horrible. i love you so much, and i can't wait to be with you.

*ahem* i'm SUCH a sap! :D

BD