Yeah. So I asked the cute girl out today. And I did it reaaaaaally awkwardly (but it was the most composed and self-aware awkward I've ever seen, so I guess that's alright?) And I was sure to say, "please feel free to say no if you don't want to." Because really, I didn't want to force her into anything. So she looked awkward, and i said, "I won't be offended if you say no," and... she said no. But that she was very flattered. And then she was like, when are we rehearsing next? (Me and her and a friend are singing Girlyman for our GSA show thing.) So that's... good, I guess? I mean, for a rejection, I think it went very well. Could have been far worse. And I hope this doesn't make things awkward between us... Because this was a crush. That was all it was, and it's pretty fantastic. See, I tend to fall for people, really long and for very large amounts of time. But I think things with this girl can work just as well as just friends. I'm let down, yeah, but not crushed--not unless I'm in some weird shock state or something and I haven't realized it yet. But... Yeah. That sucks a little, but I think it'll be okay. I'm upset more in the generals--that I got turned down, and that aah, I'll never have the slightest degree of romantic success. Argh. I hate my subconscious. And I don't like my body very much, I've been noticing lately. Argh. But that, that... is a discussion for another time. I'm going to go do homework now, and then hopefully have time left over to go watch some Avatar/that episode of Dollhouse that I never got to watch. Peace out!
P.S. A bit of good news that I'm not sure I shared on here: I got a silver and three golds in the Scholastic Writing Awards! Yay!