Sometimes, I honestly can't stand not KNOWING why I feel the way I feel. Why am I GAY?! Is it genetic?? Is it because I was raised by a single mother and she had tons of lesbian and gay friends? Is it because my father skipped out when she told him she was pregnant? Is it because boys have physically and mentally tortured me my whole life??? WHY?
I'll admit, I have problems with guys. My whole life, I've only ever had 2 guy friends who were really close and they came along in high school. I don't trust men or boys. I constantly wonder when they're gonna hurt me like the guys at school did for those long 8 years. I just..don't trust them.
Why do I like girls?! My mother told me that she's not TOTALLY 100% straight...so is it genetic? But then why aren't I straight with lesbian tendancies? (haha) It kills me not knowing.
How do you guys feel? I'm honestly curious to hear your answers...I'm still looking for mine.