So, this is really random, I know, but I'm not sure that people know this (even my friends) and I just really feel it's itching to be known.
I had this friend in middle school who had some of her own problems at home and behavorial issues. We became friends. She used to punch me all the time. It hurt. And tickle me until I had red marks across my stomach. It hurt. And then she would say that we had to have a pillow fight. She didn't know her own strength. She would hit me really hard and I would cower in the corner. She would keep hitting me because I never said stop.
I never told my parents.

Some days, I'm afraid that I'll be in a relationship with pain and I again , won't say stop. This is a bad feeling.