I kind of want to write a journal entry because it has been a while since I have written one. But I have lots of stuff going on right now so i'm not really sure what I would actually like to write about. Maybe a braod overview will do for the moment.
Basically last week I hit absolute stress breaking point with my college work. I sought some career counselling advice and advice from various parties. So I am hoping I can salvage something from the project that is destroying my life(I may be a tad dramatic) but thats how it has been feeling.
Aside from that I have been continuing to hang out with my lgbt society peeps. I am still quite socially awkward with them. But I am getting better. I still have a massive crush on the girl I mentioned previously. I think I am in with a slom chance of her liking me too. I have been considering telling her I like her. Worst case she doesn't feel the same, I am sure I would cope. Best case she likes me too, afterwhich I'm not sure how to proceed, wing it I guess.
In other news I seem to be having some sort of silent war with my family. Basically rows that my sisters psycho stalker boyfriend have caused just refuse to go away. I don't want to talk to him ever again, I honestly have little desire to talk to her either. Anytime I do I generally tend to end up so upset I have suicidal thouhts. My parents are caught in the middle of all this. My mother trying to get me to talk to them but then also knowing how much hurt they have caused then backs down and it goies around in a circle like that. My dad is avoiding the whole thing completely, and my brother who tends to switch sides during rows is currently onside with my sister. So I quite honestly feel as though it is me against my family in a fight I never wanted to be involved in.
Thats about it really. Over and out Oasisians.