There is a girl in my lgbt society that I have a huge crush on. I am not sure how she feels about me. It is all very confusing. I always feel really awkward and have trouble speaking to her. It's like everytime I have seen her and been like a complete tard, I give up hope that anything might happen. But then some random small thing happens that changes my opinion and gives me hope again.

Like last week at our society meeting she seemed kind of cold towards me and not really too bothered. But then a few of us went to a show she was performing in and she was chatting to me really friendly. But myself and a couple others had to leave early, and I ended up having to leave without saying goodbye. I didn't really think she would notice. But then randomly last night I was at a gig with a couple of friends and I looked at my phone to see a text from her asking if I was out tonight. About two minutes later I bumped into her. She was all chatty and asked how come I had left early the few nights earlier. I didn't think she would have even noticed I had left.

Unfortunatly my friends were being a pain in the bum and I ended up having to leave early again last night. It was weird though coz it sort of felt like something could have happened last night with her, had it not been cut short.I however could be reading the situation wrong and be deluded! She told me to text her when I got home and I did. But then she never wrote back. It's kind of confusing. She seems hot and cold but it could be just the way I am interrpreting things.

But I think I might just tell her outstraight how I feel. I think she is a nice enough person to be ok about it if she doesn't feel the same. At least I will know then I guess. To sum up I heart that girl.