I suddenly realized that I'm kind of scared of my own mind and emotions. For a little while now, I've been taking these natural mood enhancers (aka hippie anti-depressants) and they're AMAZING. I'm so happy and they work really fast. There was no period of like..getting used to them. It's just pop two in my mouth and a little while later, I feel happy. But it's not like a HIGH happy. Nothing like that. But it's like...if something is funny...to me it's 100 times funnier. I do get upset and depressed sometimes, but it's like the period of time when i'm sad...isn't as long lasting as it used to be.

But see, I got really freaked out. One time I forgot to take them for like...eh...maybe 2 days. And one little thing happened and WHAM. I was on the floor, out cold. I was so depressed. I couldn't believe it. I was angry and sad and couldn't stop thinking about all the things that had been bothering me.

It scared the shit out of me. To put it simply. I'm scared of these feelings that I'm masking. These meds aren't like...serious or anything. They're not major anti-depressants, but they're doing wonders. But still...i feel like i'm tethered.....
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