I....... feel like this guy.
Okay, so, there's this cute girl, who I kind of want to ask to semi... but two of my friends think she's bitchy and annoying (respectively), and I suddenly got all afraid I'd be getting back into the fiasco I had a while ago where I fell really really hard for this girl who turned out to be a bitch who strung me along for a year. Just, like, I'm suddenly flipping out about getting into something I don't actually want to be in. And I'm reluctant suddenly to, like, make her join chorus next year--which I'm sure she'd love--because if something happens between us, hey, we'll be stuck in chorus together. I know that sounds bizarre, but two years ago I convinced two of my very good friends to join chorus (one being the aforementioned bitchy crush girl); and the next year we all ended up in the choir class together (so in all of the same classes, plus choir), and a month into the school year I couldn't stand either of them. And they're still in choir with me. Yeargh.
Also, aforementioned bitchy crush girl... thought she could write lyrics. And as I actually can write music, I set lots of her lyrics to music. And when I got my head out of the clouds, I realized that the lyrics were actually rather cruddy--and more than that, that I'd wasted some of my best music on them. That sounds strange, but one of the pieces I'm most proud of today was music for her lyrics, and I can't really use it now and it's bad. So, current cute girl sent me some of her lyrics to put to music. And... and now I'm just ridiculously paranoid, and feel that if her lyrics are bad then I'm doomed to repeat the saga of bitchy crush girl, and just ARGHUHAULCRAZINESS!!!
Waah. I'm confused. And ridiculous. And I think I'm PMSing, which would... explain a lot, actually. Help?