It is officially the last day of winter break. Well maybe not officially, but close enough, tomorrow I can't stay up late. I have to savor this, I have to make this last. Alone, again, as usual. Just like I like it. My one man parties are the best. I just kind of wish I had a rockstar or an amp, I like to call it my motivation. Caffeine is the cure for everything. It's my drug, man. If it wasn't so unhealthy I'd take pills. I'm not the kid who brings a monster to school everyday or anything, but I really do enjoy them on the weekends and breaks. I guess I'll have to settle for Pepsi. It's not as great, but it's something, it's enough. I love the rush of caffeine. It makes my heart pump faster sometimes and my mind is racing and I have so much energy. I'm going to buy something tomorrow to have for monday, it'll be great. I hope I never get a tolerance for the stuff.
For once in my life I finished a project early. I mean it was actually due the thursday school was cancelled, but I didn't do it all on sunday. I kind of finished it today. I just have to glue everything together. I'm so glad I started working on my homework yesterday because I found out I need colored pencils and glue and we needed ink for our printer and the ink place was closed and its too expensive to get at a store!!!! Yeah it was a lot of let downs so we just had to drag out the old printer and hook it up, I'm so happy it worked though, otherwise I would have been screwed. It feels like a big load off my chest though because I have been dreading doing it since I know I always procrastinate on projects. Go me.
I'm feeling better. Earlier this week I was feeling pretty shitty but I think I'm alright now. It was just a temporary feeling.
I think I might actually be starting to be myself again. It's not that I haven't been myself, but for the past couple months, ever since school started I haven't been doing anything that I really enjoy doing, I just sort of stopped. I think at first I was adjusting to high school and the homework and everything but it's been long enough! I've been happy and stuff but I don't know why I stopped everything. I just recently started playing video games again, yay. I've been thinking about finishing the books I'm reading, or watching movies again. I feel motivated. I just hope I follow through. When I do the stuff I love it brings me at peace because I don't have to think about shit. I have so many books I haven't read, so many movies on my list, so many games I haven't finished, it makes me sad. But that just means I have that much more fun to go through haha.
Tomorrow will be the last day until spring break. I hate to admit this, but I'm kind of excited for school. I miss my amigos. I guess I never had anyone to miss before, but it still feels completely unnatural to feel excited to go back to school haha.
I hope everyone has a great last couple days of winter break!!