She asked me "Are we okay?"
I said "I don't know."

She asked me "Are you okay?"
I said "I don't think so."

There was a pause.
And then I said "I don't think I'm okay enough for us to be okay."

I mean, it was gonna happen sooner or later. I'm not sure if I'm up to relationships, or, like, relations, with anybody. That sounded a little melodramatic, I know. I really feel fine about this... I hate that I've been making her miserable though. And I have been. Which sucks. I want somebody to just sweep her off her feet and treat her so well, take her out on dates and see concerts with her. I want somebody to make her happy.

But I don't want to. Y'know? Whatever. What has happened has happened.

In other news, my school's talent show is/was today. There's a performance tonight and there was one during school. My friend and I performed "Coin Operated Boy" by the Dresden Dolls. It was fun. I play piano and she sings. I totally fucked it up a little, but it's okay, only the people who'd heard the song noticed.

There's this chick named Chelsea who's also in the talent show. She's one of those beautiful people, that you don't really know them or particularly like them, but they're just so beautiful that you have to follow them around a little. She played a song on the guitar. We talked for a while and we're gonna jam after school on Tuesday.

So now I need to practice guitar so I can sound good when I play with her.

In other other news, I'm auditioning for this show that I actually REALLY want to get into. It's West Side Story, which is lame, I know, and I'm not much of a singer or a dancer, but if you're familiar with the show, there's this girl named Anybodys who just like, follows the Jets around. I wanna be her. SO BAD. She's an acting role but unfortunately, the audition is just singing. So I need to pick a song that shows acting, and acting like Anybodys. I'm thinking "Alone in the Universe," from Seussical or "A Fine Fine Line" from Avenue Q. But I dunno.

Okay... I gotta go do math homework now. =]