I've been meaning to write a journal for a few days now, but once I finish working on assignments I haven't wanted to go near a computer. I have been feeling a lot better since my last journal. I went along to see the counsellor. I had my first visit there last week. It was a strange experience to go into a room with a total stranger and pour my heart out. But I somehow felt a lot lighter as I walked home. I am going to see her again tomorrow.
Despite the despair of my last journal with my lgbt society I have continued to go along. Some meetings are good, and I feel positive after them. Sometimes I don't. But I think it probably is important I keep going. I do feel a lot better about being gay since I have become somewhat of a regular in the society. I came-out to my friend at college whom I was still closeted to. It feels so much better. I feel so much better and confident about coming-out.
I have also realised that it's not just a case I say I come-out and go along to my society and my life is fixed. It is a process. I come-out but I also need to actually live out as well. I have read other peoples journals on this site where they say this. But it is only now that I actually understand what this means.
My life is still far from perfect and I have some bad days, but I think now I have some grasp on it and to some extent what I need to do.
Ok that is all from me now. I hope all you cool kids of Oasis are well.