Today I was out doing the last of our Christmas shopping with my parents. Anyways, while I was out I noticed quite a few really really cute girls, lol. So, that was umm.....interesting. It sucks though cause like I seriously look like I'm 15 or something. I've ALWAYS been told that I look younger than my actual age. I don't think that it helps that I dress like a tomboy. I mean, how many people know 20 year old tomboys? Seriously. Anyways, we got all of our shopping done which was.....nice?
All I'm asking for this year is gift cards. Impersonal? Yeah, maybe but I need some clothes and I don't really trust my sisters to pick out clothes that I would actually wear, lol. You know whats funny, though? My mom can actually buy me clothes that I actually wear. Her and my dad have always bought me clothes over the years and they tend to buy me clothes that are....well me. My mom(and dad) don't have any problem with the way I dress. They've never had a problem with my tomboyishness(?) and they've never tried to change me or the way I dress. They never discouraged me from playing sports or getting rough with my guyfriends. Which, when I look back on it now, is pretty damn cool, you know? In the past I remember a couple times where I was clothes shopping for school and I hated the way all the girls T-shirts had REALLY short sleaves. So, my mom suggested that I just get a boys T-shirt. That's sort of odd for a woman who on occasion says semi-homophobic things. Isn't it?
On another note I think I am trying to fill a void in my life with things that just don't do. Actually, I think I have been for a while. The void being my social and/or love life. Yucky. I think that I've been using video games and movies(Lesbian romance movies. What else?) to try and fill the void. The movies actually do work to a degree. Video games not so much and South Of Nowhere has actually been quite nice to watch and enjoy. But when do I get to get out and experience these things that I'm watching on film and TV??? When you move over an hour away from your friends you can't have much of a social life other than talking on the phone and IM on the computer. That's not really for me though, I need more. I like to actually see my friends in person and all the time and go out and do things not be stuck inside on the computer/phone. Sad? Yes, lol. But It's gonna change next month when I start my job workshop, so that's something to look forward to:D