Don't Use Your Penis For A Brain

starsxfallxup's picture

That's what one of the ads on the side of the screen says. Thanks for the advice, I'll try not to. It won't be hard since I don't have a penis.

Today when I was talking to my friend Nikki I said "You need to relax. Guys are just like girls, but with penises." and she flipped out. Because I said penis. Yeah. It's weird. So I said a bunch of other words and she exploded. Including but not limited to "blowjob, vagina, clitoris, hot sex, hot GAY sex, anal sex" and a bunch of other things. So I laughed and told her she was five years old. But oh well, it's Nikki. It's the way she is. She fully even admits to being a prude. It's kinda funny sometimes. She is super fun to talk to.

Apparently Nikki and another one of my friends from my old school, Ange, made a list in the EIGTH grade about reasons why they thought I was gay. Turns out it was a long list.
I sorta told her about my gayness indirectly. She guessed. I was telling her about a person that I liked but I wasn't using any pronouns and eventually she said "So who is she?" and I fell off my chair pretty much. I flipped out. And I was relieved! Relieved that someone finally knew me well enough to guess. Relieved that I didn't have to say it hahah.
One of my other friends had suspicions but didn't want to "be ignorant and assume things."

Haha Nikki is awesome. I'm going to go read Breaking Dawn now. I've been taking many breaks from it and reading other books because well... Edward and Bella are just so HETERO. As bad as that sounds. The only love stories that I really like are between two girls or two boys. It's definately because I'm gay... oh well. Two guys together is sweet and two girls is GAHamazing. But not like in a pornographical way, in a love way. You know?

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Merric's picture

In my universe,

Bella falls for Alice, and Edward and Jasper... comfort each other.

duct tape godess's picture

=D

thats how it played out in my head too.

as for the thinking with the penis add i had been stareing at that for about 5 mins b4 i read your blog.
xD

runningupthefreeway's picture

90

so ditto.

I read the twilight books and then realized that I had much more interesting version in my head.

And ditto to the love thing. I know what you mean.

railroadhighwaydreams's picture

Hmmmm... maybe that was part

Hmmmm... maybe that was part of the reason why I could only finish half of Twilight.... I guess it was way too sweet, but not in the way that I wanted it to be. (This being 8th grade mind you, two years before I came out, or was even truly sure myself)

I'll pick up a book and read the first few pages. Hopefully it's old fashioned (hence, I'm real looking forward to reading Annie on My Mind), and it will always, ALWAYS be between two girls; I'll just put in an "s" wherever it's needed in sentences.

I guess that's also why (and this has been going on for ages), I'll stop reading a book in the middle because it's way too sweet and cute (but straight) and search forever trying to find a book closer to home. Even then.. I knew guy & girl love wasn't something I could relate too...

Jeez...
and yeah.. Bella and Alice ^_^
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"all girls are bi at heart"
-katja
"all PEOPLE are bi at heart"
-sonya