
Now that my mom knows she won't stop calling.
It's great to know that she still cares and she's not ignoring me. But half of the time she's suspicious asking if the DJ is around, what is she doing, why am I always alone, am I going to see her later...blahblahblah....and most of the time she does call it's all at the worst times! It's not even when the DJ's around. My mom calls when I'm leaving before school, when I'm heading to the library, when I'm making dinner...then she asks repetitively what I'm doing. It's like she's making sure that she's not around.
I was out having dinner with the DJ just now and my mom called in the middle of dinner. It was probably the worst phone call, I couldn't lie to her because she was so fucking suspicious.
I said I was out having dinner with friends, my mom was like who are they? I said a name of one of my friends...It was pretty stupid because she doesn't even know a lot of my friends over here, so I don't even know why she wants a name...but anyways.
Basically it went like this:
Me: Carmen's here.
Mom: Oh really? Put her on the phone.
Me: I can't really do that right now, she's eating.
Mom: What do you mean? She can still talk to me, you usually put her on the phone with me. Why can't you this time?
Me: Because I can't and that's just rude, she's eating, you're interrupting us.
But anyways, after a long try of lying, it obviously wasn't working very well.
Mom: you're with her aren't you?
Me: yes I am.
Mom: Why did you have to lie. You never used to lie to me. Why are you so dishonest with me? You never used to be like this.
Me: Yes I lied, but I have never been dishonest with you.
Mom: Why did you lie??
Me: I'm sorry mom, but I'm just having dinner, why are you even asking?
Mom: You're having dinner with her...I just don't think it's that great.
Then she goes on stalling me on the phone. She wants to say things, but she has no idea what else to mention. So she starts talking about a few random things back home that pisses her off...Which was bull...anyways...It finally ended when I told her my food was here and I really needed to go.
She called back later on the night when I was at the DJ's place watching TV.
My mom was all like, Are you sure you're just watching TV?! Yes mother, we watch a lot of TV together. It's not even a lie, we just like lying around together, making fun of TV shows or actually watching movies. The only parts of info I skip out on you is all the PDA (Not Public Display of Affection, but Private Display of Affection).
Sigh, she stays on the phone with me...sometimes for no reason at all, even when it goes silent. I know she wants to talk, but right now we just have nothing to talk about.
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yikes. honestly, at this
yikes. honestly, at this point I'd probably stop answering my cell. Or rather, not answer while I'm out and about/out for an evening dinner at least. I'd call back at a better time for myself (but also try and keep it within a couple hrs), cuz' it sounds like it's getting rather annoying and disruptive. And obviously you shouldn't allow this to interfere with the life you're living in van, cuz' that would just make life poopy, when it should be great =) This must also be making for a rather, uhm, ugly phone bill eh?! That'd be my excuse anyways =P
I think things will get a lot better once you're home, and actually get to talk/explain/cry your heart out to her (and vise versa) face to face.
Keep your chin up! It'll get better soon =)