I appologise in advance if I rant, ramble or seem generally insane. It's 11:34 pm in lala-land and I can't sleep and am listening to waaaai too much J-rock than is healthy! BUT who cares! I can sleep when I'm dead!
I really should stop taking imaginary drugs D:

Well, I'm Alex, 16 and a highschool drop-out. Yes, yes I know I'm bad and everything but I couldn't take it anymore at my old school - more prejudiced than where I live now and here is Mini Deep South, the Uttah of New Zealand as a friend lovingly dubs it. People here honestly answer, when questioned that they'd rather be a neo-nazi than gay. Nice. But yeah, dropping out, possibly the biggest mistake of my life but oh well. If it stops the suicidal tendencies then it's working!
And it doesn't matter that I'm a dropout, I managed to get accepted to do a 3D animation course at Lifeway college (though I doubt anyone knows what the hell I'm on about) and I worked my ass off for that. So, um, huzzah for me?

Ummmm.....other stuff......I came out to my mother a year ago, but I only realised recently that I'm really not attracted to any form of male life. Weird considering I only just stopped being with a guy - whom I was with for almost 8 months. Amusingly enough I still live with him, and he's so flamboyantly gay I'm surprised his parents don't already know. Yes, situation is complicated to explain but it works, he's my best friend and I love him as such. SO yeah, yayness....but not yayness considering we're the only openly gay people in this town filled with old peoples and neo-nazi's.

And old neo-nazi's. >.<

Oh well, Johnny Cash can sing me to sleep and I can stop drinking so much caffeine....and I'll stop rambling on before this gets anymore crazy and rambling and long. I'm not always this weird, I promise.

xox