K so i haven't been here in ages I got caught up in the splenders of life. So I log in and it says i have two unread private messages I cannot find them LOL HELP! I refreshed the page it still says i have new msgs and i still cant find them XD they aren't appearing as "new" in my inbox...
I have a confusing yet exciting new development in my life. Her name is Jess (and yes i have a lot of friends named Jess) she and I met when we were about 13 (its been almost ten years and I have lost track of how old we were when we met) we met at camp. she is a week older then me. she and i were literally inseperable back then! We live an hour a part so the only time we saw each other at camp. We continue our friendship now online, as we are too old to go to camp now. we talk daily with webcam. Just a bit of back story Jess and I both have physical disabilities thus we attended a camp for youth with special needs. We used to get out of our chairs for camp fires at the end of each day. we would each have a staff member sitting behind us as our balence outta our chairs sucks. anyway, we'd be sitting there with the staff and jess would reach over and put her hand on my leg the staff would move her hand off my leg automatically the next few nights at camp fire this happened I finally asked the program director (a visible lesbian and cute might i add) to sit behind me jess naturally again but her hand in my lap M who was the lesbian looked at me and jess and back at the smile on my face winked and didnt move jess' hand away lol recently i told Jess I was plaaning to come see her for the day and she was like why dont we get a hotel room she is confusing me she will flirt and then tell me shes straight but then she said do you wanna share a bed bc i miss you....she told me last night she likes when i flirt because she feels closer to me (and yes Jess knows I am gay when I told her this a few years ago I also told her that I have feelings for her and she was cool about it went through her own question phase tells me shes straight but hasnt dated since i came out) then somehow we got on the topic of self image and i was like dude how can "she, using the general context of woman" fall for me if all she sees is my chair and she was like girl you dont see how pretty you are she said also in front of my attendant who will be coming with us and will let us share a bed Jess said she would do anything for me she tells me shes straight am i wrong in thinking this chick is falling for me? K sorry that was soo long I would love to hear any thoughts on this PLEASE i am excited and nervious I am going Dec 17th is she missing me as a friend or wanting me as a gf?