Wow it really doesn't take much time for things to change. Just about 2 minutes after finishing my first post one, where i kind of wallowed in my little pit of single celibacy, of my best friends J text me and asked if he could stay over Saturday (aka last) night, I said yes.

Now i could go into a detailed description of the entire night, but i won't. Pretty much we sat around and watched a couple of movies with rum. One thing led to another and after a couple hours of making out/groping etc culminated in J giving me by far the best blow job iv ever had. I think we both got to sleep around 430.

The catch was that J had to work at 10 and me at 12 so we both kind of woke up at about 8, giving us both maybe 3 hours sleep and a hangover for work. I wouldn't recommend it. And did i mention i worked 7 hours on Saturday afternoon, so yeah I'm really tired now =D.

That all sounds really bad doesn't it, especially when i describe it with phrases like 'making out/groping'. Especially when i say this has happened before (except lthere was there was no blow job in February), and I really don't think it meant anything to either of us. Yes its true, I have a 'friend with benefits'.

A year or so ago i probably would've felt terrible about this, slutty in fact. I didn't even think this was possible; despite the fact that last night was really amazing, there is absolutely nothing between me and J and never has been, were just really good friends. That is all. I do not feel terrible about this.

Many people reading this are probably finding this whole situation strange....

So i guess i did get part of what i said i wanted in my last journal (obviously no emotional bond or anything), so not really exactly what I had in mind (normally I'm one of those hopeless romantics, and still am), but it was amazing.

Something inside me refuses to apologize for being 16 and horny.