I feel glum.
I've been missing my camp all year, a large amount. It was full of music and fun and wonderful people and it was a perfect place for me. But everyone I was really close to last year has already graduated the camp, and won't be coming back this summer. And I've facebooked some camp people, and they've consistently not replied to my wallposts. I'm paranoid, yes, but I'm starting to think that I'm that girl who, you went to camp with but you don't really like at all, and you just ignore their emails and attempts to get in touch with you hoping that they'll get discouraged and go away. It's all very acute because there's a girl from camp who I'm doing that to now. And I just don't... argh. These are really wonderful people. I want to be close to them. I miss them large amounts. And I also don't want to go back to camp and be friendless and alone. The music will be wonderful regardless, of course, but if I don't have the friends and the social aspect, and if I'm virtually alone all summer... argh.