Im a bit down today. I got to thinking about my friend who died. I liked her so much, but I disliked her for a variety of good reasons that seem moot right now. She played people some times, and she was with one of the few people i really disliked. I wonder if she ever was upset with me? But through all that I really felt attracted too her, but she was too much of a people person to ever be with me. She usually had several boy or girl friends and I wrongly thought I wouldn't want to share her when now i knw that i wouldn't want to lose her. But now shes gone. for good. Why am I always attracted to people with so much charisma? They never like me the way I like them.