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Halloween was awesoooooooooooooooooome! Maybe not that awesome, but I got complements for my face makeup and got TONS of candy. My bag was really heavy, at least it seemed that way. I went trick or treating with my friend B and my little cousin. It was kind of weird cause I usually hang out in a group with all my friends like B and his girlfriend (my other good friend) and some other people but we hung out at my house for about an hour and it was cool. I usually don't do the whole one on one chill time cause I always think it'll be akward, but it wasn't, yay! But no one else could come which is why it was only us.

The past two weeks I've been feeling pretty good, like happy/energetic and stuff. I haven't made any new friends at school but last week I was feeling really good and I started to talk to people finally and I was glad. Today I felt pretty shitty and tired cause last night all I did was toss and turn and don't think I slept for more than an hour at a time without waking up :/ , those have to be the worst nights ever!
I haven't talked to my crush yet. I hate myself.

I finished all my homework for once and it's not past midnight, that's always a plus. Usually it will take me all day to do my homework cause I will be side tracked but today I wasn't. I hope tomorrow I'm feeling better.
I decided I should stop cutting myself for a while. I hate wearing long sleeves and hoodies all the time, it's annoying. I usually never cut my forearms because of that reason. Plus I haven't done it in a couple weeks and I've been feeling great. But anyway, I'll probably stop for a little while, hopefully, it just matters if I want to.