I'm pissed off, and i need to rant a bit to let it all out. Ugh.

so, my cousin S and i used to get along okay, but not so much anymore. she's about twice my age, which is no problem, we're just totally different people.

she's so fucking selfish!!! i mean, not in the "it's all mine" way, but more like "it's all about me." if i'm in a bad mood, it's her fault (in her head, anyway). if i don't want to sit next to her, it's her fault (actually, it's cause i'm severely clausterphobic, and get panic attacks when i'm crowded). and she gets pissy/upset about EVERYTHING.

on top of that, she is the ditziest, most absent minded, ignorant person i know! (and all of those things piss me off like nothing else) she SQUEELS at EVERY little damn thing! like, "OMG! you MADE these placemats?? that is SOOO amazing!! no way you made them! get out!! OMG!!" that's her about the placemats my mom made LAST FUCKING YEAR that she's seen FOUR FUCKING TIMES already.

i passed this test last summer that let me get out of highschool early, and she was one of the first people i told about it, right? well, she just saw my results on our fridge (my parents are weird), and she was like "OMG! you passed?! why didn't you TELL me??" i'm like "....um, i did. you took me out to dinner to celebrate it."

she just got a new iPod nano. "OMFG! it's so CUUUUUUTE! can you believe how tiny it is?? OMG, the little circle thing is so tiny! WOW it'll tell you what time it is in other parts of the world? OMG! that's so cool!!" she seriously said those words about the touch wheel. i mean, come on.

and the worst part is that i actually want to spend time with my parents tonight. we had split pea soup for dinner (my absolute favorite meal, ever), and my dad and i had this great conversation about ansil adams, and these photos we have, and all this great stuff, and then SHE came, and just crashed it.

oh, and she's all 'zen' and stuff now. which is fine, great, whatever. I'M NOT. nor will i ever be. but, oh no, if she is, then everyone else has to be too! like, god forbid i should get ANGRY about something. OH, NO! anger is BAD. it's EVIL. i'm like, dude, i'm a teenager. i get pissed off. i rant about it for a while, then i calm down and go on with my life. it's perfectly okay. but got, she flips out.

okay....i feel a bit better. it's annoying though...my room is directly over the living room, so i get to hear every word they're saying. isn't that fun? oh yeah......not.