I SUCKED at being a girl.

And now I suck at being a boy.

Only less.

According to my awesome gay librarian, I hit like a girl. So she had K, the annoying gay senior who talks about himself FAR too much. Give some examples. Gee thanks, like I wasn't aware of how girly I was previously just let the world know. XD;

I was more annoyed at K because according to him I don't officially count as a guy. But I think he only says that because he likes being the "sole male" of the GSA at the moment, it gives him an excuse to complain about the lack of guys.

So I went to Anime club today. I was surprised because I wasn't expecting everyone to read me as male. I mean, I go through the trouble of binding and crap but I always feel like I'm walking on thin ice. And some of these people have met me before so it was weird.... And stuff.

So one guy calls me a lady as an insult. (Because he has a superiority complex and is an immortal-wannabe and likes to bluff and pick on people. I think it's just because he's trying to compensate for his shortness.) Which was funny because I didn't realize that it was just that. And I was like "What? I'm a boy." And then I was like "Crap, he didn't mean that litterally." (in my head) Maybe I'm a little paranoid.

Ok, I AM paranoid. I'm overly self concious about my chest and my voice. I'm gonna go nuts one of these days.

Another nice thing about being a guy is that now it's okay for people to pick on A for clinging to me. Which is nice because I wish she wouldn't, and maybe people thinking that she's striaght will be enough to get her off.. XD; Though, she got annoyed at me because this kid asks if we're going out (her fault mind you) and I made gagging noises. So she glared at me and then she chased me. But I still managed to outrun her despite my lack-of-ability-to-breathe.

Umm what else? Oh. HERO is a really good book. And it's gonna cause me to fail English. Because it's SOO hard to read stuff for English class when that book is RIGHT THERE shouting READ ME! READ ME!

Seriously though, it's awesome. It's about a superhero kid who happens to be gay. You should read it. Now.

Done ranting now I think.

~Riku

EDIT: I'm kind of pissed at my aunt because she's fine with trans people, and with me being trans, sort of. But she hasn't bothered to try to get used to my new name, or pronouns, or see me as male at all. And not only that, but she thinks it's funny. She makes jokes about me being a girl. And it's not funny. I mean, I'm insecure enough as it is without your help thanks.