New Year

sun_also_rises's picture

I haven't been on here in a while, I guess I have just been really busy. I'm back at school, it'll be over a month now. My classes are going pretty well I love my screenwriting class. I think that's really what I want to do. But on the other hand, screen writers don't have much control over their story after its written so I'm not sure if I would be entirely happy just being a screen writer perhaps a producer as well? However career decisions are way off and the way the economy is going who knows what I'll be doing when I graduate.

In terms of girls --- ahhh, nothing new but I think I have come to terms with myself - in the sense that I'm still not entirely comfortable with my sexual identity. On some level I really hate being a lesbian, i hate the stupid stereotypes that go along with it and I hate the fact that I will never have anormal relationship. It just massively sucks (that's my rant for the day). I thought I had come to terms with all of this, but I don't think I have that and until I do I really can't be with anyone.

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miss-back-and-understood's picture

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and it just sucks how you cant kiss in public or hold hand without facing discrimination from society?

mmmmm. its STRAIGHT.

miss-back-and-understood's picture

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and it just sucks how you cant kiss in public or hold hand without facing discrimination from society?

mmmmm. its STRAIGHT.

wild-blue-yonder's picture

True.

I'm jealous of stereotypical lesbians... they have it easier. It's true, as soon as you come out as a lesbian people adopt a whole new set of assumptions about you, probably less than half of which are true. So then you have a whole new set of problems to deal with. Grrrr.

Sometimes being anything besides straight sucks. But then again sometimes it's worth it, too.

sun_also_rises's picture

idk i kind of get annoyed by

idk i kind of get annoyed by stereotypical lesbians -- i mean on one hand i would hate it if EVERYONE know or at least assumed that I was gay just by looking at me but on the other hand its a whole lot easier meeting people.

And in terms of "normal relationships" it just annoys me that straight people see gay people as these exotic creatures to gawk at I feel like no matter what I do i will always be a cliche and I hate that.