Starting to think I'm a little asexual..

I have too much self-control. I'm too picky. And I get disgusted when people like and I don't like them back. Well, not disgusted - but I distance myself. And I never like (crush-wise) someone anymore, not really - I don't have those times when I fall head over heels over a crush or anyone anymore. I can feel attracted to someone but I never really feel strongly about it anymore. I'm too emotionally reserved in that sense, or am I just becoming too indifferent? Or just too adept at mastering who I like or my emotions? Or am I in denial? I don't like anyone unless they start liking me first - and uh, yes I probably just distance myself away because I'm not attracted to them.

I know I'm not asexual (probably not...) but it's just I'm becoming awfully disillusioned with relationships. It seems like I've put myself through an mental (and sexual) form of anesthetic, a pattern of thought in order to cope. It's conditioning the way i think, act and feel emotions. I'm thinking I'm doing this to protect myself from getting hurt again.

Yeah.