
This is all so new to me. I keep saying I'm Bi in a way of self defense because in my head it makes it ok to be half gay. But I think its time to stop with the pretenses and accept the truth of what I am and that is a full on lesbian. I find men attractive from time to time because I've been brought up with that mind set for 18 years but they don't come close to the way a girl feels in your arms and the softness and suppleness of their lips. It took me this long to come in terms with who I am and what I like but I'm glad I can openly say I like girls and wouldn't have them any other way.
It's funny because, I've had illicit relationships with girls before, nothing special just adventures to pass the time. But now I see myself falling for a girl that has fallen for someone else and I don't know how to handle it. I want to be selfish and take her away from her girlfriend but that wouldn't be fair to Baby, (I call her Baby :]) I don't want to hurt her if her girlfriend is what she wants.
I guess if this doesn't work with her there are many other girls out there, but for now I only want her.
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congradulations on coming
congradulations on coming out to yourself! *hug* you're my hero today, cause there are so many people who can't come to terms with themselves, so good for you!
i'm sorry about Baby though (lol). that does suck. especially cause by backing off, you're doing the right thing...but it hurts like hell. *hug*
hang in there! i know from experience with unattainable loves that eventually they do pass...it just might seem like an eternity until they do. i hope it works out alright!
Bulldyke
"this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart" e.e. cummings
Thank you, its a big step
Thank you, its a big step for me but I'm glad I took it!
And I love e.e. cummings! my favorite poem by him is "anyone lived in a pretty how town" you should look it up if you haven't read it. :)
hi U2!
yeah i've heard a lot gay people saying they're bi just so it makes them less guilty, look what the society's "normal" standards have done to us! It's great that you are trying to come to terms with it!
LOL baby is such a sweet name, and it's very nice of you to think for her at her own good, that's what true love is about. =D at least you could still be friend with her, i guess.
Yeah, I don't think the
Yeah, I don't think the friendship thing is going to work, its too complicated. I'll just play it by ear and see what happens :)
Thank you for your support!
Complicated much?
I think that maybe baby doesn't have it so easy either. I mean you say she has fallen for someone else, but still talks to you right? Maybe this is as hard for her as it is for you, she's in love with one but is attracted by the other..hmm must be a hard situation. I agree that maybe you should play it by ear and see what happens, not saying that the future aholds great romantic connections between you both, but you shouldnt completely shun out the idea of being friends... you should try to take things from her perspective...
-Always lezzy ;)
Yeah, I think you're
Yeah, I think you're right.... Baby and I could be and will be great friends. I never thought about looking at it through her perspective, I guess that's something I should have done since he beginning.
I love the band U2...
I love the band U2... anyway, good luck with the Baby situation. I would give you advice but I'm quite, quite clueless. Good for you on coming to terms with it all.
Hmm...
Welcome to Oasis...
Bi isn't really half gay. If anything, it's a horrible pit stop. It makes you more gay to your straight friends, and possibly more straight to your gay friends. So, unless you're truly bi, it's not worth the time.
If anything, saying you're bi is just a step you may need to let your mind change your definition of normal.
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