Halloween is approaching, and I'm starting to get excited. I'm taking my cousin trick or treating with some of my friends. The next day I have a party to go to that Brennan invited everyone, but my friend S also said she wanted me to come to this other party with her. She talked to me on msn and told me she smoked pot for the first time and we talked for a while. Supposedly at this party there will be alcohol and drugs etc. and I was just like ok cool, I'll see if I can come. It's kind of a big deal cause neither of us has done anything bad alcohol or drug wise. We haven't hung out in a while but we've been friends for like 10 years or something but I'm kinda psyched to go. We made up a plan to tell my parents that I'm going to Seattle to her friends house with her from camp, and I THINK my parents will probably believe me. I feel kinda bad ditching Brennan and his party but we're chilling out Halloween night anyway and I always see them and I haven't seen S since homecoming, which was actually the first time in months. I'm not entirely sure if the party is still on so I haven't told Brennan I can't go yet. I just hope things work out. I've never really had a reason to lie to my parents, so it's kinda big, but I'm not freaking out, really. For some reason I'm a good liar when I need to be.
Pretty much I still like my crush. I don't see myself saying anything anytime soon.
Last week I was feeling pretty good. They say that crying is good for you cause it lets you get everything out, but I think that's only every once in a while cause before I was crying a lot and feeling so shitty that crying just made me feel worse. I use to never cry. I figured I should stop again. It's not good. So far I'm doing fine.
I had a nap today and after I woke up I felt incredible. Like I had just drank 3 energy drinks or something. I haven't taken a nap after school since last year, but I was feeling soooo so so hyper. It was crazy. I think maybe I will take naps more often if I can at least fall asleep at a decent time tonight, otherwise no more, which is why I stopped in the first place.
this is an awesome song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZJi2z3tGKIg