Why do I get crushes on lesbians? Does not make sense. DX' Also, I think my hormones decided to wait until Junior year before they started to speak up, because for the first time in my life I'm actually seeing people as "hot" or whatever. Guess I'm just a little late? XD Who cares? I certainly don't.

It bothers me though, because I don't want to force myself into some kind of pseudo-female identity or whatever. Although, now that I think of it, dating a gay guy would be kind of ehhh, because quite bluntly, guys have testosterone. Which leads to libido. I don't think I could deal with that. Most of the time I don't want to be touched sexually at ALL. It's wickedly uncomfortable. And then there are straight girls, most of whom don't know what a transguy is. XD

...There's that girl in my Graphics Design class who has definitely been expressing a little too much interest in me. Probably because I'm a Junior, and she's a freshman. And I know the program better than my teacher. I was hoping today she'd ask me what I was reading so I could tell her "I'm reading Boy Meets Boy, for the second time, it's a great book." and then maybe she'd think I'm gay even though I'm not really and that would be that. XD;

Also, there's a really hot guy in that class, the reckless side of me wants to make him question his sexuality. Just a little. But I have too many self-image issues for that. Maybe once people stop mistaking me for a girl.

It's kind of ridiculous how much I've changed in a year. Last year in GSA I was the quiet one in the corner who didn't really talk to anyone. And now I'm talking to everyone and making friends. This is totally new to me, normally I'm just introduced to someone by someone I already know. But I totally made friends.

Another great thing about GSA is that there I don't have to play boy-girl-boy. I'm just ME. I'm totally addicted to that.

I really wish everyone had the chance to have an accepting environment like the one I live in. My dad is awesome, my friends are awesome. I really couldn't ask for more. And I feel awful when I can't deal with my problems, because so many people have it SO much harder. And there isn't a whole lot I can do about it. I hate that.

Done blabbing for now. Looks like my journals have ended their shortness streak?

~Liam