And their stupidness. D:

I guess if you were to label me I'd be an asexual-femme-FTM-nerd-geek-dork-vegan-thing. 0w0 Which actually amuses me a little but you know, everything amuses me.

Actually, one of my friends was calling me "LVTT" for a while Which stands for "Lesbian-vegan-type-thing" XD; I wanted to kick her every time she said it though. That girl is so shallow sometimes. -_-;

She's the same girl that was picking on me because my sister wears girls clothes and I don't. And she said that I'm a "ugly lesbian." Which was insulting because I have to put up with this horribly feminine-cute body day in and day out and she totally dissed it. XDX;

I read Parrotfish the other day. Great book but I felt kind of bad for the "soul-sucking-bitch" and for Grady's dad. Oh well. :O

I have to go pick up my schedule for school the day after I get back from Florida. FUN. D| And then school starts on the 27th FUN. And if my schedule is still screwed up I'm going to start verbally bashing faces in.

School is tiring. You have to keep a good eye on that administration or they'll just do what they want. It's kind of obnoxious that I have too. But it seems like every time I don't they mess something up. DX;

Oh geeze, I'm going to be a junior this year. I feel so old. Even though I'm not. I'm a year ahead. |D I'm turning 16 this November. (LOOKOUT DRIVERS ED! HERE I COME! >:O ) It'll be fun though.

Yeah, a soon as I get there I'm going to march straight up to my counselors office and be like "okay so I'm a boy, where do I go to make sure the school understands this?" >:O She'll probably be 90% useless as always. But it'll be a start. And I need to get some extra credits this year because the school is all like "LOL the year you were home schooled doesn't count so you need to take extra classes. >:(" So I need to get the ball rolling there as well.

Haha, they should give me credit just for having to deal with them like this. It's really getting to be a pain. XD

And my dad doesn't want me to come out to my mom because she'll tell my grandparents and they'll be all like "LOL I dunno what that is but it's bad and so it must be her dad's fault. Let's blame it on him and use it as an excuse to keep her sister here. 8D"

Even though it's not their fudging divorce.

But enough of that.

My coming out continues to be an inspiration to people. Now half of my friends are (openly) questioning their gender. XD; I don't know why I'm so influential. (A couple of my friends and my cousin became bi-curious after I came out as a lesbian a while ago too. XD) But I guess all it is is that, they see me being loud and overconfident, and they decide that it can't be too bad... Or something. I dunno.

But you know, if it wasn't for C (My MTF friend, who is amazing. :D ) I would probably still be in denial. So I definitely owe her for that. She's a lot braver than I am. I mean, I can barley deal with being in the closet like this for two weeks. (My time here in Florida with my mom.) She has to deal with it at home, and at school, all of the time. Not to mention the world seems to be a lot harder on guys that are feminine, in any way, than they are on girls that are masculine. Even though she's not a guy that's feminine, but you know what I mean.

But uh.. Yeah. I may not be happy with my body, but I'm really happy with who I am right now. ^^ It's just really freeing.

I'm really dreading school this year though. It's going to be a roller coaster and I know it. Between the therapy and the extra classes, and the coming out at school... It'll be interesting. My dad says I should wait until I'm out of High School. But that's not really an option for me. Just this, the two weeks here is giving me mild depression. And it takes a lot for me to get depressed. >_O (Do I get sad easily? Yeah sometimes, but some kind of steady feeling of crap, that takes a lot.)

Although it doesn't help that my mom is an immature ass. Who's in denial about my sister being upset about being down here no matter how obvious it is. >w< *twitch*

And geeze, I dunno why you bothered to read this far. I write a lot don't I? 0w0 I could make a novel encyclopedia from all of my journal entries. XD;

Uhh... Yeah.

~Riku