So I forgot to mention all of the fun stuff that's happened yesterday because I was busy ranting on about how scary it is... You know, to transition in high school.

Anyways, I have English class with my MTF friend C, which is fun because my teacher wants to get to know her students so she gives us these questions and we're supposed to interveiw each other and write each others answers down and stuff. And we'd come across a question about say, "what would you change about yourself?" and we'd start laughing.

Only problem about sharing a class with her is that I have to keep changing pronouns in public. It feels weird to call her male. 0w0

My entire Graphics Design has no idea that I was born female. Including my teacher, which surprises me because I'm sure that it says on the student-profile-thing that I'm "Female" The class is 90% freshmen though... XD (probably because the upperclassmen know better? I wish someone had told ME that the teacher is a nutcase.) It's kind of weird because the teacher is all like "lol let's sit you boy-girl-boy-girl and stuff." So yeah.. But I look like a freshman boy so I fit in pretty well. XD I think that's the only class where I'm 100% "passing" though.

It's weird for me, because I can't even see myself as a girl anymore. I look in the mirror and I see a boy, a very unfortunate boy, but a boy nonetheless. The concept of me being a girl just seems so weird now. Even though I have female parts. It's frustrating that everyone wants to still see me that way. X_X; And part of me wants to play along because it'll be less challenging, less scary. But I don't think I can do that anymore. ._.;

ALSO. Sora (yeah, her. We're still friends believe it or not.) happens to have her birthday the same day I have my first appointment with a therapist... Which I will not miss for the world BTW. But she's not gonna be too happy about that. ^^;;;

I think I'm done blabbing now. I dunno.

~Riku