and i have done a few things i regret....

oh.....*facepalm* to the nth degree. ohhhhhh me. how grrrr-inducing.

1. i join my grandmother's church choir. i am an atheist, but i like singing....don't ask. it's the church i grew up in, so i figured i owed them something.

2. lovely woman is there. old enough to be my mother, but still, lovely.

3. i stammer and babble, ears catching fire any time i try to talk to her. i literally become a blushing, bumbling fool as she watches me with those cool blue eyes. she sits in front of me, and i have to resist the urge to play with those blonde curls.

4. it turns out, this woman has known me since i was a wee thing. she was talking to my grandmother earlier about how in her mind, i should still be a little kid.

>..<

it doesn't take the attraction out of it, but still...should i be weirded out by this? i dunno why that threw me so bad, but it did. i have to start going out with people my own age...or at least people who didn't coo over me while i was in diapers...