Alright, I've posted a similar (possibly indentical) topic before but that was months ago.
But it's a subject that comes up again and again in these journals. So what does 'gender' mean to you?
I'm a bit allergic to the word, if I'm honest. I try to read something serious about gender and I can feel facial expression turning into the one my father has when anyone other than him talks about anything; the Jeremy Clarkson effect, two parts condescension and one part smug.
Judith Butler is staring me down on the shelf above my desk, behind an empty mug of tea. I read bits out to G and B (the siblings) when I want to them to help tidy up, like my mum will make them watch the Welsh channel if they're squabbling.
I am perhaps not the best person to start a serious discussion of 'gender'. But I'll try:
Tell me about your gender.
I feel sometimes just sick to the stomach, when I remember that almost all art, culture, philosophy, politics and history, most science, most literature is the achievement of men. Almost everything worth recalling.
Sometimes, being a woman makes me feel so distanced from humanity.
I am frightened when I read about biological basis for male and female behavior- you know all the endless pop science and dodgy evolutionary psychology- because I don't think I stand another six millenia of holding the baby.
But the fact that I am irrevocably female is tied to my body and my mind is a part of my body. I am feminine as a result of cultural experience, I am female biologically.
So when people say that they are male or female, but that this identity is exists other than their physical bodies', I don't actually understand what they could be talking about. It's not a matter of transphobia; I'm not denying their experience of gender, I just don't know what they mean. Which is why perhaps some people might be able to help me with their answers here.