I guess it just hit me what "transitioning" really means...

Okay so I have a sneezing fit, the teacher sends me to the restroom to get something because she doesn't have any tissues.

On my way out of the (mens) restroom I make eye contact with some kid that was in my German class LAST year. when I was a "girl" And ugh....

I want to change my name and school. I don't even hate my school. Yeah it's a mess but I love my teachers. (Except for the favorites-playing, annoying, sexist one. DX; ) But I don't know if I can deal with this.

I can't even talk to my consoler about it for a wile because the school screwed up EVERYONE'S schedules. DX; Although she's probably just going to tell me that I shouldn't go through with the transition until after High School.

I don't want to have to live in fear of being found out for what I am. I wish I could just be me and people could just accept or at least tolerate it.

I'm tired of being scared.