*Fear No Queer*
Lately,I've been really confused about my orientation.
Im actually what they call 'sexualy fluid'. But stuff has made me think more deep into all this...
Yesterday, my socalled EX, said, " you know,there are these center's...where they help turn queer poeple into straight.Besides,there's nothing like being queer...its all in your head"
I duno why all that got me so low. I was in this horrible blue mood since then. I feel so lonely, so lost. Like,im the only one who feels something irreplaceable for the same sex. Its ok for her to say such a thing because she only believes in fooling around with girls...nothing more than that.
Im NOT weird.Im not suffering from any disorder.Im just being me.
And guess what, she also thinks that im dating P because i wana prove to myself and everyone that im NOT a lesbian.
That is JUST SO SHITTY. why would i do such a thing? If i grow into being a lesbian, I really wouldnt mind that.At all!
Its just that,im realising,i am truly a Bisexual, because even when im with a BOY, i do have dreams about girls and i fantasize about him too!
Ok,so it does get pretty messy at times. Like what i said in my previous journal entry. But nevertherless, I still like him a lot,and things seem to be improving :)
My point being, that bitchface ugly smut[my ex] has absolutely NO RIGHT to temme ANYTHING on MY SEXUAL LIFE.
Thnkuverymuch :)
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Err...
Did I miss the post where you weren't bisexual? Your first post here said bisexual and you've always said bi, no?
Actually, people have the right to tell you anything about your life. Even if you don't give them it, they can do it anyway. But you get to control whether it affects you.
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Are those the centers that
Are those the centers that shock your genitals when homoerotic pictures come up? Those scare me...
Or the ones where they basically water board you, except in ice? Ugh... *cringes*
My friend is sorta like you, sexually fluid or bisexual. We call her a dyke still though. She doesn't mind cause she understands that we know she's an "equal opportunist".
Those centers scare me.
Those centers scare me. Also, right on! no one can tell you what you are except you. Just belive in yourself and things should work out.
i am so corny.... *sob*
'Oh Brave New World!'
- Brave New World
I think...
I swear! The whole idea of
I swear! The whole idea of those center's freak me out!
And Azul, I love the whole "equal opportunist" term :D Makes me feel so good about myself...thanks for that :)
Fox333, sometime's right things sound corny. So its fine =]
I guess Jeff is right...we get to control what affects us...but im a long way away from gaining that sorta control =S
Let's get one thing straight, I'm not.