Woah. So, It less than a week, I'm going off to sleepaway camp for the first time ever, for a 5 week period. The most I've ever been away from home on my own is 3 days, tops. And I've always had a little bit of separation stuff (or something... a mild degree of separation anxiety, I guess), and lately my pho-insomnia has flared up again (where I start stressing about not being to get to sleep, and the stressing keeps me up and leads to less sleep which leads to more stressing.... -.- ) and I'm just... worried.
It's a composing camp and everyone there will be super musical, and while I'm very musical I've had little to no training and I've got no technical skill, so I'm worried I might pale in comparison to everyone. Then there's the, oh god, what if I didn't remember everything, what if I pack nothing I need and spend the whole time miserable and supply-less, or what if it turns out all my new clothes don't fit me and I have nothing to wear... and of course, there's the age-old, will I make friends? Will I get by without my friends from home? Will I get a good roommate or will my dorm life be hell?
Then there are worries about my creative flow, about the pho-insomnia thing, that amorphous first-time-away-from-home anxiety... and a part of me is worried there'll be homophobia there. It's a camp in New Hampshire, and it is artsy and music-y, but still... I have to live with these people for 5 weeks, I can't afford to piss them off. It would go against my principles to be quiet and closeted... I don't know. How have people handled being out at camp? God, this is so weird, it's been more than a year since I stressed about coming out to anyone... I don't like this feeling =( advice please?