Today was the last full day of school. Monday we go back for only a couple hours. I'm happy and sad at the same time. The last week of 9th grade is finally over and I'm excited for summer but I miss everything, and everyone. Everything will be different, and I don't want it to be. But I know high school will be a great experience as well and that I've been rushing to get there for so long that now I don't want to leave, I want to stay young and irresponsible and I don't want to care.
Today was also the 9th grade dance, but I didn't go. It's not really appropriate, there's no point for it I guess, but I wasn't really sad about that. I figured it might have been akward anyway going with all my friends who all have dates and such, but I've never gone to a dance in the 3 years I've gone to the school, so I didn't put much thought into going in the first place. Even though this year has been different than all the other years, better, since I finally have friends. Maybe it would have been fun to go, I guess I'll never know. I'm glad everyone else had a great time though, I'm really happy that everyone else is happy. It seems that when I'm feeling really great at school no one else is and it sucks, but now that I'm happy most of the time it doesn't occur so often.
I'm still in love with my crush. How disappointing. This summer it will probably go away but I'll just let it happen because obviously I'm not going to try if I haven't already. She's amazing. I was going to tell her in her year book, but that might sound creepy. So instead I wrote, don't forget me, which I think fits, less is more, I always say. I had been debating the last couple days what I would say too...I'm happy she signed mine though. 'I'm going to miss you this summer! I hope to see you next year' which satisfies me much. Maybe one day I'll tell her :/
Anyways, summer is finally here and no more waking early in the morning, or going to bed at a reasonable time or taking naps in the middle of the day. I'd rather sleep all day and stay up all night and lose all track of time!!