I was at her place.Technically,i was supposed to go to this other friends place but she went out with her folks[a last minute plan].So i had to go to S's house as it was nearby and i really dint have any other place to go.
We just couldnt keep our hands off each other. And its totally wrong because a day back,i told her we cannot have any sort of physical contact.It would just repeat history and that's the last thing i want.

But it was all "i wana rip your clothes off" sorta thing today.
I was sitting on a chair,in front of the computer at her place.She comes next to me and stands. She bends low to see what i was working on at the comp. Her face is now inches close to mine. She turns to look at me and we kiss. It was an instant thing. Probably lasted for only 2 seconds.But boy,it felt good.

We kinda maintained our distance after that. It wasnt supposed to take place. Later on,she walked me till the bus stop. No one was really around...she comes close to me and hooks two of her fingers by the rim of my jeans and pulls me closer to her. Slowly,her fingers slip inside. I gasp and remove them.
She said im turning her on,she said she wants me.She said she wants my fingers in her.
I cant do this.I cant do this to me.Again.I cant do this to us.I cant do this to P.
What is happening?!