Me so far...
About 2 months ago I came out to my sister T. I wasn't planning on telling anyone for awhile but it just kind of happened. Heres how it went: T calls me while I'm at home watching t.v. and she tells me to come outside right now and we're going for a drive. So i get in her car and she's like look in my purse. So I do and theres 4 pregnancy tests and their all positive. I'm like wtf?! So we drive around and talk about it and I say do you want me to tell you something that will make you feel less alone? She's says yeah and I say I'm gay. She says I know. And I'm like really?! She went on to tell me how she thought that I was a lesbian for a longtime. I was surprised because I thought I hid it pretty well.
I didn't expect my first coming out to be like that at all. It was weird because I though no one could tell. The fact that someone can is relieving and scary at the same time. I told myself I would wait to come out until I met someone, but that hasn't happened. Before now the only 'gayness' i had in my life was the Tila Tequilla show, occasionally movies on t.v. I would look up more stuff online but I have dial up internet so it takes forever and I can't download anything.
Since telling T she's held it over my head as blackmail. I cant make her mad or else she threatens to tell our parents. I'm not ready for that and I would for sure get kicked out. I've told a friend to. I haven't brought it up since I've told her though, but she seemed cool. I also told my other sister K. K was really cool with it, she said that she had no idea but she was proud of me for telling her.
It's getting hard already to watch what I say around who. I hate the whole feeling like I'm living a double life. Because I guess in a way I am.