Mourning is a Process

29 May, 2008 - 4:15am — underage_thinker

School is almost finished for the year
the year that went by so fast could never have been stretched out longer

my dad says that I have to just hold on as hard as I can for the next week and a half and then I can finally break free

my grandpa died three( or so, time is so convoluted) weeks ago and I have yet to mourn

The week that he was incapacitated, after his stroke, was a blur.
I know that I cried a lot and hugged my family

But I had to pull it together the next day
He died on a Sunday, and I took a math test on Monday

I have to keep holding on
I can't let myself break open

I can't let myself open
until then

Until then, I leak sometimes
slowly letting out feeling

but I hold most of it in

I count the days

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29 May, 2008 - 4:45am — Icarus

sometimes it isn't a big

sometimes it isn't a big blowout, it's just little by little. my mom died over three years ago, and i just slowly grieved....

while time doesn't heal all wounds, it does help a little bit...

much love. <3

Leave you alone for FIVE MINUTES!

29 May, 2008 - 5:03am — Inkblot

Best wishes

and condolences. Take care of yourself, and be strong. All things, even sadness, will pass eventually.

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29 May, 2008 - 6:44am — jeff

Hmm...

Mourning isn't required, really. I think I'm switching gears when in most cases, I'm starting to celebrate their lives rather than mourn their deaths.

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30 May, 2008 - 7:34am — underage_thinker

well, yeah

That's a large part of what I want to do, it's just that I can't do anything

it's choking on your beliefs; it's your worst sin saving your fucking life
it's the devil's knife carving holes into you soul so angels will have a place to make their way inside
life doesn't rhyme
-Andrea Gibson

29 May, 2008 - 9:34pm — thinks

I can understand why its

I can understand why its important to you to keep your emotions in but I can also understand why it is essentially important that you let them out. Just because what you do and how you handle this situation.

30 May, 2008 - 5:20am — mattymunch67

:(

Im very sorry for your lose. I cant say i know how you feel because everyone feels different. I can say that what your going through is something that will pass over time. I agree with jeff that you should celabrate his life. Im not saying dont mourn, because mourning is part of the process. Just keep breathing and let time help you.

Best wishes darling. Stay strong.

30 May, 2008 - 7:35am — underage_thinker

0_o

Thanks, all

31 May, 2008 - 7:10pm — Fiona Rosge

living, loving, laughing, life

Keep strong luv, hold in there...time shall heal all your wounds, so I hear.
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Come Josephine in my flying machine
Going up she goes up she goes
Balance yourself like a bird on a beam
In the air she goes there she goes
Up, up, a little bit higher
Oh, my, the moon is on fire
Good-by