Gosh! I just got a very interesting phone call, and not because of what was said during it. It was interesting because of what was not said during it. My good friend called me tonight, and he didn’t say much but I feel like that says a lot, especially since he called, basically, just to say hey.

I was totally surprised that he called in the first place, and then I was disappointed because it became clear very quickly that he didn’t have anything that he wanted to talk about. He asked me what was up and I told him about my day, briefly. I told him how my other friend and I were going to Target to get something with my fifteen dollar birthday Target card. I told him about my little pre-birthday birthday party. I asked him what he was doing, and he said he was just watching TV. I asked him what he was watching and he said everything, that he was bored and tired. The phone call only last two minutes and thirty seven seconds.

I’m worried that something is wrong. Not like a physical hurt kind of wrong, but a mental kind of misplacement wrong…if that makes any sense. I feel like he wants to talk to me, that he wants to do something with me but maybe I’m wrong. This is the second time he’s called me, I should call him next obviously, but what I don’t understand is why he would call me to speak of essentially nothing? He calls me for a reason, could it simply be that he is soooooooooo incredibly bored and everything is so void around him that the only thing on this planet he can think of to do is call me? Could it truly be that simple? I’d like to not think so. I’m hoping for someone else’s opinions and insights. I’ve got one. I talked with a friend who happens to be gay at the college I attend, and he said he thinks I’m just reading into it too much. Still, I will proceed with my thoughts and hope for some kind of advice/insight.

I’m wondering if maybe there’s some kind of subconscious/subliminal kind of implication going on (or whatever you’d like to call it) that I’m just not picking up on and maybe he isn’t either. I mean could he be wanting to do something with me? He didn’t say so but could he be? May that be one of the reasons? I just don’t understand why he isn’t really talking to me. A hey is GREAT, but in my eyes its only a start, not an end.

I’m super glad he’s called me but I really feel like I need more than a hey, I need more from him than that. I’m not trying to say anything serious, I’m trying to say that friends do more than just say hey. I’m hoping the summer will bring me more of him, because if it doesn’t I don’t know where we’ll end up.