I’ve found something to worry about, as usual. I’m worried that he won’t call, even though he said he would. He hasn’t this weekend, which is no big because I wanted some space and didn’t want to do anything with him anyways, but still. I’m worried that he just might not call, that somehow this may be the end of our friendship. I don’t know, and it’s a drastic worry, but I still worry.

I was talking with my therapist and he said that I’ve probably scared my friend. I think it makes sense too. My friend didn’t react terribly or anything, but I still wonder what he’s thinking on the inside about it. Then again maybe he isn’t bothered at all by it? He’s only seventeen though, and regardless of whoever thinks that’s fairly mature I believe that it’s not all the way up to par. Some people never are, no matter how old they get.

So maybe there’s a chance he really is scared and thus probably wouldn’t want to deal with the situation and stay away from me because of it? I don’t know but as of right now I think it’s just easier to wait for his call. So then what happens if he doesn’t call in say three weeks, including this week? Should I call him? Wouldn’t that be over stepping a boundary especially if he said he’d call? Is that even long enough to wait?

All in all though I have to understand that I’m finding things to worry about. None of these things are necessarily true, they just have the possibility of being true. I just wonder what you guys think. My therapist says that my friend is still immature and can’t quite handle something so out there, but I don’t know if he’s giving my friend enough credit. I’d just like to think that my friend is at least a little more mature than immature.

Anyways I guess I’ll leave discussion open. Hope to hear from some of you.