Tuesday, April 08, 2008, 8:14 PM

Well everyone I don’t know what to call it, but I’m having it. It’s not quite a week, but it also involves parts of last weekend and week so technically it’s been the length of a week but it’s not a week. I don’t think there’s a name for it. Anyway I’ve had an interesting whatever that’s called.

I’m somewhat depressed because in one part of my mind I realize that I might not be doing anything with my friend for some time now, but in the other part of my mind I keep saying that everything is going to be alright, that everything will be fine. The fact of the matter is I just don’t know.

After telling my friend what I’ve told him I just don’t know any more. I mean he seemed fine with it at first, but after everything that happened on our last Sunday together I’m guessing that something may be stirring in his mind. I feel like he may be having doubts or something. I don’t even know though. He said he’d call me sometime, he hasn’t though. So that also means that as far as my worries go, I may be worrying for no reason.

Don’t get me wrong I’m not making this the sole of my life right now but it’s been a whole week (even though that could be considered a small amount of time) since I’ve heard anything from him. Since I (hopefully) understand that he isn’t the center of my life I’m able to continue on with things without making him the center of it but if two weeks go by it will be harder, and if three weeks go by it might become unbearable.

Then there’s the regular school stuff. I got a D+ on a test I didn’t even study for. That was disappointing but surprising at the same time. I mean I put no effort into preparing for it, and I still, be it marginally, passed the dumb thing. It’s still probably going to take my grade down though. I’ve got what I feel is an acceptable amount of homework done for today, including the completion of one chunk of assignments. I feel like I balanced fun and work today but I still didn’t do it quite right, otherwise I would have also studied for the quiz I’m going to have tomorrow. Studying seems to be my downfall.

Is anyone into Portishead, the trip-hop band? They’re finally coming out with a new CD after TEN YEARS! I like their first CD, Dummy, best. Their second CD has some good songs on it and I just can’t wait for their third, conveniently entitled Third, CD. I just wonder if there’s anyone out there interested in such bands as The Prodigy or others like The Chemical Brothers, Overseer, The Crystal Method or Portishead?

Well on one final note: I was told “why not call him?” from at least two people. I’m afraid that I’ll be overstepping some boundary if I do. He may not want to hear from me and he did say he would call me…so shouldn’t it be that way? I can only understand that a call from me would be acceptable if it was forever since I heard from him, and even then I question its appropriateness. So let me know what you guys think, should I still call him after waiting for a while…if he doesn’t call me that is?

Peace for now.