Love is a strong,powerful,and at times a necessary word. The word love can melt a persons heart, change their tone, and even get a person laid. As in my case the word love is one word I do not use unless referring to close friends and family. Although there are different kinds of love. There is love you have for a friend, its friendship and nothing more. There's love you have for family, the kind that is there from day one. And there is the love that is between two human beings who care deeply for one another. I do not use the word love very often. I use it with my oldest and dearest friends and of course my family, but I have never used it in a relationship. I feel as though the word love is something that I just can't express in a relationship,because I don't feel it.

Yesterday I left my computer screen on when I went to get the mail. I unfortunately didn't think Heather would violate my privacy and open my laptop and read my email I got from Jesse. I walked in to see her reading with a look of disgust on her face. She qouted the end, "I love you and I know you love me too." Since I have never told her I loved her, Heather was pissed and crying. She was furious with her yelling and scream and tossing of my books and notes. I don't think I have ever seen someone get that angry before. Her screaming was giving me a headache. After about 20mins, she sat down and let the waterworks flow, while I left the room,my room(duly noted she locked me out of MY room). After she stopped crying,cooled down, and let me in I explained to her that I never,ever, once said I love you to Jesse or to anyone else I've dated and never would. I put it simply like this....."Love is not in my relationship vocabulary. And when someone tells me they love me, I say I know you do."